My thoughts...
Today I am flying back home from a well
needed vacation. But from the looks of my posts, I’ve been on vacation from
uploading new material. With this break, I’ve changed in many aspects
{emotionally, spiritually, financially, in education, and personal
relationships}. Today marks the beginning of a new beginning…
In reflection on Miami Beach, a revelation hit
me… Like it was a real feeling of “Aha!” I still have a mental bruise from the
hammer of truth that slammed me two days ago. Lately, I have been trying to
figure out who, what, when, where, why, and how all these changes could be
coming into my life at one time. The revelation was that I am in a place of
receiving what seeds I’ve planted. I’m sure all of us have heard some reference
to the biblical reference, “You reap what you sow.” This is real… To be
transparent, I have done a lot of selfish and inconsiderate things towards
others, based on the fact that my needs were to be priority in all situations.
I have lost good friends and ruined relationships with family, friends, and
loved ones because of selfish notions. I would like to take this portion to
apologize to those who I have hurt and/or shunned away.
With that being said, I have to recognize
that because of past actions, there will be consequences. The feelings of
“change” (not to be taken lightly) are in direct effect of the seeds I’ve
planted. So I am taking a stance to say that now is the time for me to deepen
my reaping. I am now responsible to plant positive seeds into others lives in
hopes that one day my actions will be received back to me. To be more specific,
I will not take others for granted and what they mean to me simply because, it
doesn’t feel great being the one who isn’t appreciated. In noticing this un-appreciation,
I could only reflect on how I had given similar indications that I did not value
those previously in my life. Now realizing the feelings associated on this side
of the receiving end, I want to never put anyone else in that feeling.
By deepening my potential reaping, I know
that I will have to plant positive seeds, and not become jaded because the soil
in others’ garden isn’t being tended. I have high hopes that when it is my turn
to receive again, I can value and take full advantage of those who will plant
seeds in good ground. So that’s what I’ll be working on… Creating good ground
to nurture what will be.
Written by a change agent,
Sean Lamar
